Summery for the past couple of days

Arrghhhhh... Was supposed to be posting something yesterday but the entire computer suffered "sudden death" just when I was talking about my future and what do I hope to do... After that, my brother and sister wants to use the computer while I went down to Forum Gallery to meet Cheng Hao.

Was talking something about where I want to go or rather... which industry do I belong to.. Work wise... Since young, I've toyed with the idea of being a policeman, lawyer or even a singer... that's when I was in my teens years. Then I want to become an architect or even a interior designer...

Interior designer, yes I think I can. I love to draw and I've that skill, taken that course. I've graduated from Interior Designing course in 1997 and well, till now, I've not touched anything since. Have not even much of portfolio. Sigh...

Singing? As a career? I do not have the look/ vocal/ height/ body shape. Sigh... I feel that I am not good enough for anything...

After being saved, I very much want to be a preacher, evangelist, teacher, song leader, song writer and whatever God wants me to be. I am really lost... I want to be a Church staff but I doubt it'll be now. Anyway, after going missions this year, I want to be a full time missionary but... How am I to provide for my family? I just can't see what that is coming... It'll really be a dream come true if that all happens.

I've been through two years of bible school but well, I am still at where I am. I still have not forgotten what Pastor Joshua prophsied over me. That I will be rised up as a leader in 3-6 months time, that's when I put in efforts to look into my own life, to be a better communicator with the rest of my members but... I think more than prophesy, I need revelation from God.

I love kids... Hehe.. find that they are very cute and nice... Alas, where should I head to? Bro Colin, Sis Gillian and some others also told me the same thing... I think it's a serious thing from God to me. How should I go about doing it? I am at lost... Really at a lost... :( God... Could You let me know how and direct my paths?

Sy Rogers
I admire the courage of Sy Rogers and am hapy that God had done so much for Him. I learnt so much from him when he shared his testimony with us in Church. How a person suffered so much and became a person who almost become a female... How to deal with people and revelations of God's word, not condemning anyone else. Even if they are different from me or are sexually inclined to their own sex. Not talking behind other's back etc... Felt convicted by the Word he shared with the entire Church.

Wonderful rests
Thank God... That these few days, I have had wonderful rest. Enough and great rest. This was what I have been longing for... Hehehe... Felt so much refreshed and energized now... That was why when the clock strikes 12, I get very tired and dozed off. Wonderful, eh? Hehe... Kind of felt that I was like Cinderalla... Difference is that, I sleep while she have to be back home... Wahaha

Yesterday, went to look for Cheng Hao and took a couple of pics with him while he was working. Ahaha... I'm not gay. He's a good friend of mine. Someone whom I could confide or even trust upon. After meeting him, I met Alan, Ryan and CuiLing. Then off we went, to Hard Rock Cafe.

Hard Rock Cafe reminds me of something... A bad experience with my secondary school friends. Back in 1996, I was suppose to meet them over there... During the EVE of Christmas but I waited for them for FOUR HOURS and NONE of them appeared and I spent my time, wasted, there. :(

Anyway, old things have past and I am made new in Christ. I forgive them and yesterday, I had a wonderful time with Ryan, ChengHao and CuiLing. ChengHao gave a treat over there and wow... I was so full that I cannot take in anymore...

While having dinner there, I saw a girl over there, another customer. She looks decent and rather attractive to me. Hehe... Our eyes met for a number of times in a span of about 2hours or more but... I did not go and know her... :) Unlike of me... I dare not go and get other's number... :)

Alright, today... I did not do much, just proposed in my heart that I ought to update my blog and to do soe planning. In the morning, I helped out my parents in the market. Felt that I had a wonderful time with my parents. Helped out my mum to make the dough for the "tang yuan", a sweet kind of dessert.

After I've reached home, I went straight back to bed. Don't know why but was really tired. Before I rested, I was listening to the Audio Bible... Felt God's presence and when I was asleeped, I felt God's presence and even dreamt that God was talking to me, via the Audio Bible.

Was listening to the book of Acts onwards... Was dreaming half-way through that I felt I was being rebuked by God and that I needed to do something... Which I cannot recall. :(

Sigh... Forgetful me... How can I forget things so important??? :(

I do not want to be so forgetful. God, forgive me for being so forgetful. I'd wake up and write things down whenever I dream about the things said to me. Also, help me remember things that You want me to do. I pray all these in Jesus' name... Amen.